| grably groo aglaba |
[Oct. 18th, 2005|04:03 pm] |
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| | Project 86- Chapter 2 | ] |
Am I an asshole? yes. But only slighty. And hey, at least I have good intentions, which is ODD for me.
Am I going insane, literally? Quite possible, or maybe i already was
Hair standing on end, it's sent forth
Is this the end I was always meant for?
I still long for the taste of better days long ago
Long past, so dead to me but yet
Here it is in the palm of my hand to see
As I witness the birth of a new beginning
I sense it breathing, I feel it seething
I see my fear begin fading |
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| Her eyes... |
[Oct. 5th, 2005|04:26 pm] |
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| | "Turn the Page" - The Streets (UK underground) | ] |
Okay well, like I said ive met someone....*interesting.*
Shes really actually pretty cool. We hung out for a while the other night and I think I might actually like her. I dunno though. She unique. One minute she's a complete bitch to me (although I THINK shes joking, mostly), the other shes the biggest sweetheart Ive ever meet. She does, says, dresses, goes exactly where/what she wants when she wants. I cant even remotely begin to figure her out or what shes ever thinking. Hell I dont even know if she actually has any real interest in me at all or completely hates me. And for some reason I find all of this incredibly attractive. I cant explain it. Lol...I asked her magic eight ball if she was into me twice. It said dont count on it both times....lol.
And her eyes...OMG!!! She has these big blue eyes...they are gorgeous. Shes probably gonna think Im really creepy if/when she reads this but fuck it.
I shouldnt like her. I dont know if Im moving. Shes heartbroken over an ex from longago, and so am I....just a little tho. I think Im just an inch away from being 100 mended. Not not caring about her (if your female and i know your last name Im prolly gonna be protective/care about you) but just ready to move on and stop hurting/being mad at myself. Im not as cool looking or "gothish" if your gonna use stereotypes.
But yes...Im hoping for the best and expecting the worst. Because its what I always end up with anyway. Please...let something be good for once. |
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| Long Update... |
[Oct. 5th, 2005|04:22 pm] |
Wow where to start...okay.
I flunked out of the Special Forces seletion. Better luck next time I guess. Im not giving up on this goal. Ive set my sight on to many goals in the past only to fail or give up and im NOT going to do that anymore. Im going to finish something I start if it fucking kills me.
So im awaiting orders to a regular unit and have been for 5 weeks now. Out of the SF world back to the gay regular army of shaving every day and spitshining your boots and ironing your uniform. bleh. And not training and blowing shit up everyday :(
I wanna stay in NC because Im just starting to get comfortable here. Im getting familiar with the area, meeting a few new people, and I just dont feel like moving my shit all the way across the country for a third time in 6 months. Plus if i stay here Ill stay on active airborne status and thats an extra $150 a month and at least 2 jumps a month. I DONT WANNA BE A LEG!
I went out this weekend and got alchohol poisioning celebrating with my buddies who did get selected. Im real happy for (most of) them. They deserve it. Yeah I discovered a 'train wreck'. Its four shots taken right in a row. One shot vodka, one shot goldshlager, One shot yagermeister, One shot of RedBull. I also discovered that it is possible to think you passed out at 2am but were really up to 6am being beligerent and pissing the people in your barracks off while dry heaving every 2 minutes. At least I didnt call my ex drunk....this time. (lol...lost_interlude and I have a habit of that)
Well....after a two week battle with the MD and NC dmv I finally got my Drivers License unsuspened so I could get a NC license and thus a car. NC is backwards. You need insurance to get a license and a license to get insurance (and insurance is required to finance a car). Backward ass fucks.
Well now that I have a lisence AND A BRAND NEW CAR Im trying to get a few days off next week. If I do I can goto MN to see NIN with my bestmelofriendever..... crazybreedaisy. YAY!!!! super cited to hang with her AND see trent!!!
Oh...and Ive been a dates with a few people her in fayetteville....and i think I met someone..... :D |
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| Welcome me |
[Sep. 23rd, 2005|09:43 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
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| | Orgy- Candyass | ] |
Hi Im new...hopefully this will be the begining of a beautiful relationship. |
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